And so as this weekend from hell concludes, I am about to put my weary ass to bed (or couch as it were). I have gathered as much clarity as possible, given the shock, and can feel proud that I can overcome ANYTHING - apparently. For all of your mid-life crisis bullshit or whatever you are going through.... (since you are not being articulate about it), I am left to draw my own conclusions..... I now find myself surprisingly thankful.
I am thankful for this wave of creativity that now swirls in my brain. I have a sad enthusiasm for a new future. I know without doubt, that we will never be the same, but it's somewhat comforting, because we will be better for this. Be alone or together, I am growing by leaps and bounds now. My mind, once content to serve, is now wide awake to explore and learn and move forward in to this scary and exciting new thing. And God Bless this life for it's ever changing reality. As much as you didn't want to get caught up in security, mortgages and settling..... I have realized, it's me that is now evolving beyond all of that.
I have done this. A successful marriage, raised kids and in all 13 years, never a day of regret or longing. As strange as it seems, I consider this a huge success. If this is the conclusion, I can walk away with dignity and pride. For this alone, I hold extreme gratitude!!
P, you were instrumental in my life while you were. The parting of ways makes me wonder what exceptional path now lies ahead of me.
I will always thank you for everything, and love you dearly.
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